How did I get here? When did I wake up?
Why am I inspired to coach and speak and write about
creating the body and life of your dreams?
I was fast asleep at the wheel of my life for decades until the morning of August 19th, 2006.
It was my 32nd birthday and I thought I was having a stroke.
My arms, legs and face were numb. I tried moving my fingers and toes as I lay there in bed and I felt the strangest sensation. My fingers and toes felt as if they weren’t connected to my body. As I tried to convince myself that the numbness and pins and needles would just go away, I started to feel dizzy. I lay there in bed and pondered what to do.
Now, before I go any further, I have to explain that this was NOT my first medical crisis rodeo. Over the course of the previous 10 years I had accumulated a list of health problems that would seem quite unbelievable for a young woman who looked so “healthy” on the outside.
I was dealing on a daily basis with things like exhaustion, ear ringing, weakness in my arms and legs, dizziness, shortness of breath, seeing “stars”, muscle spasticity, stabbing pain in my shoulders, confusion, forgetfulness, panic attacks, depression, numbness in my toes, trouble swallowing, strange rashes on my hands and face, and debilitating stomach aches.
I was so sensitive to noise and light that I couldn’t listen to the radio anymore and even running basic errands - like going to the grocery store - was agony. I couldn’t socialize or even answer my phone because I was so tired and sick. Phobias of all kinds plagued me and I had cut myself off from most of my friends….staying home day, after day, after day.
I couldn't find a doctor anywhere who could explain what exactly was wrong with me.
So, here I was on my birthday, rushing to the hospital, wondering if my time was finally up, only to come home with more unanswered questions. I was told that I probably had Multiple Sclerosis because it runs in my family, and, when further testing ruled out everything else, MS was the final verdict. But now, so many years later, when I think about it, I wonder.
I think I may have just had a Nervous Breakdown. I think that maybe my severe chronic anxiety caused my body to start breaking and falling apart. My body just couldn't take the mental and emotional stress anymore.
Regardless of the label you want to put on it, all I know is that IT was REAL and when it happened, I was suicidal.
Miracles arrive in interesting packages sometimes and I didn’t realize until years later that I had experienced one soon after that terrible day.
My miracle was a change in my mindset from Hopeless to Hopeful that occurred after I stumbled upon an inspirational story on the internet about a woman with MS.
I realized, in that moment, that I was sick of being sick and that I had to figure out this Mystery Illness. I devoted most of the next decade to learning everything I could about food, the body, and the power of the mind.
5 years later I was symptom free and healthier than I had been in my entire life. I learned the power of committing to a meaningful goal. I transformed my life in all areas using the beautiful vision for the future that had created in my mind. I healed myself using my imagination.
And now I want to share everything I learned during that process with you.
I want you to start living an inspired life like me. One based upon who you really are, what you love to do, where you want to go and your dream for the world.
So often we don't take inspired action towards our goals and passions until NOT changing becomes scarier than changing.
I didn't change until my life was on the line. That's Insanity.
Let's do something awesome NOW instead.
Don't miss the great adventure of your life!
"There is no passion to be found in playing small,
in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living"
- Nelson Mandela